Sequel to my long awaited bag

funny how things r.. before i get hold of this bag.. i tink of it constantly as to when will i get 2 possess this?? now tat i own one, i realised its actually no big deal.. it became…….. juz another bag… to me.. things take on a different perception before and after u have it.. weird tat how things mite become so insignificant/invaluable e moment u come to hav e possession of it.. perhaps tats how e saying of “treasure wat u hav” comes abt..

humans tend 2 take things for granted once the things r in their hands.. do treasure watever u hav at e moment instead of waiting until e time for u to regret has come.. by then, if u r lucky, u cld hav salvage back part/all of it.. else it will all juz b too late..

for my dear frens hu r considering to get such a bag, tink twice.. i hav been enlightened.. its juz another bag to add to my collection.. much as i like it… dun b clouded by materialistic tots.. life is still better off being simple.. i reali hope i will stick to my own promise of having juz tis bag.. no more materialistic spending.. lolz… i try..

my long awaited bag

at last it came… i have gotten my dream bag.. hahaha

im not sure if i like it..

how do u feel when u r growing up too fast.. where everything and nearly everyone is drifting so far away until u can barely get a good grasp of it?? i felt……. lost…….

a fren told me its juz part and parcel of growing up… but i reali dun get it.. fren and fren used to say to each other tat they will bring their bfs along for e gathering n still hav a gd time together.. y isnt tis materialising?? y did everyone hu has bf turned up n everything felt like its for show?? is it so hard to preserve the genuine frenship among us?? or it doesnt even exist in e 1st place??

it took a very little thing such as a bbq to show how surface everything has became.. mayb A & B r still gd frens to each other.. mayb B & D r still more true to each other but juz not tat true to e others.. which goes to show even more how surface it has been.. n how frenship has became a mandatory for everyone only perhaps.. how did everything metamorphose to tis??

it may b tat i am e only one hu is affected by all these.. i hav been thinking abt it e whole nite long.. e sadness is overwhelming.. a fren said to me ironically not to hav any expectations (tis is wat i hav said b4) so tat u wont hav any disappointment.. in fact i din reali expect anything out of it.. its juz e realisation of how e situation has changed tat stunned me.. mayb i am e only one not growing up.. still wanting to live in my naive world even though many hav moved on to their better world, forsaking those behind.. or mayb i hav been mistaken all along..

a few of them had told me “ya, e feeling is not like last time le..” y is it tat last time we can enjoy simple happiness like bbqing or having chalet together?? now some juz dun give a damn?? has work and life changed them so much until they crave for bigger things, n hav forgotten everything abt simple happiness?? i meant for tis bbq to capture e past happy times we used to have.. now i felt im so wrong.. i guess i have put my wrong foot in for tis.. n feel like a dumb fool for feeling so sad abt it.. has it became so hard tat we cannot even hold a proper conversation together.. u juz talk for e sake of talking..

i felt like a clown.. dancing and jumping all around like a small kid, squeaking in high notes over little things tat mayb do not call for excitement now come to tink of it.. n my behaviour mite b even deemed as annoying.. i felt like i am still a small kid but everyone has evolved to a lady… WHAT HAS HAPPENED??

true frens remain in e heart.. on e way back last nite, i was feeling terribly sad.. no matter wat it is, i din wanna lose any one of u as fren.. frenship needs alot of work 2 make it last.. but wat i will learn is i will slowly release, even though it hurts a damn lot of hell..

close shave

i got so distracted today on my way to work that i didnt even look at the traffic light when crossing the road.. until halfway through then i looked up and saw that it was still red man.. then i paused in e middle of e road, thinking if i sld run back.. and nearly got banged by cars.. close shave..

mood: disappointed and tired…

many times, i will tell my frens around me not to have any expectations, then there wont b any disappointment.. its always this case – easier said than done… its always easy 2 tell that 2 ppl.. when it comes to myself, i realise i fall into e trap as well..

i tried telling myself whenever i expect sth, there is bound to be disappointment attached.. juz a matter of big or small.. when there is no expectations, everything came as a nice n sweet surprise.. so y bother.. i dunno either..

my BIGGEST MJ win last weekend..

what r u doing for e whole day last sun?? me, i spent my entire day watching dear BF play MJ and playing MJ.. i reali meant e entire day.. from 11.30am to 8pm.. can u imagine urself sitting there 8.5hrs straight for mj?? hahahaa.. tis is e 1st time for me as well watching and participating in 4 rounds of mj.. frankly speaking, it was pretty exhausting..

i had my most amazing win during the last game of e 4th round.. i started off with these cards (not e whole series becos i cldnt rem wat other unwanted cards i had for tat game)

then it slowly evolved to this… aft two-three rounds of card taking..

when e cards came in such a way, i was stunned.. its totally out of my expectations.. e timing was juz nice where when the cards gathered, dear BF’s dad threw out one “hong zhong” whereby i pong.. next card he threw out “bai ban” n i pong as well.. n gave his aunt n uncle a “shock”.. of cos during this time, nobody will b silly 2 throw out “fa cai” anymore.. otherwise will “tio bao”.. i was thinking to myself, its okie, if can game wif xiao san yuan, i wld b most satisfied as well since i hav nv game tat b4..

a sidenote* xiao san yuan means pong two types out of “fa cai”, “hong zhong” n “bai man” and e 3rd type as eye.. but in xiao san yuan case, you hav 2 game in straight set, meaning all e cards muz b in sequence before you can game..

da san yuan means as long as you pong all the three types namely “fa cai”, “hong zhong” n “bai ban”, you can straight game the set even if e remaining cards r in a mess..

this is my final win..

DA SAN YUAN!! i was waiting more of “si wan” or “qi wan” to come and i cld game e xiao san yuan.. but i got a shock myself when i opened e card and saw that its “fa cai”.. yes!! zi mo “fa cai”.. e feeling is incredible.. a stunning twist to the end of the 4th round..

another ops in progress

another hen nite coming.. planning in progress.. wahahhaa

yup.. juz when we were all feeling kinda lost after sian’s wedding, one great news has juz been released! CONGRATS to our dearest Junie!! hehe.. now i dunno if i wan the date to faster speed by or juz let it slowly cruise along… so we can slowly relish it..

finally its middle of the week…….

a long wait.. n finally e mid of this week is coming to a close..

what can i do to make this week pass faster??

time seems to crawl when u r not around.. nth i do can make e time accelerate juz by a little.. at least to let this weekend to arrive a little sooner than usual..

i am starting to regret a little that i din hav e sense 2 start saving up since last yr to prepare for tis trip.. ur msg “wish so much u r here with me, e place quite romantic.” made me long that i can b there wif u to enjoy e romantic streets in europe..

today is only tuesday..

matchmaking??

an attempt to matchmake a certain HIM to a certain HER on sat nite led to quite a lot of amusing and hilarious parts throughout the whole chill-out session.. when jer toasted to us n declared that “MISSION ACCOMPLISHED” had me caught for a moment.. then i turned my head n saw n then joined in the toast.. a promise from this certain HIM plus a HIP guy to join in the fun on 27 June.. HA HA HA… tis sld b sth to be looking forward to.. a little help from the groom as well becos he was drunk n singing away.. e quick witted me used tis chance 2 get this HIM to join in the fun on 27 June on e pretense of a 3rd sabo for e groom..  juz a side thought – thinking if he comes, becos of e “3rd sabo” for e groom or becos he reali wish to join in e fun?? LOLZ

the first day of missing you dearly has passed by.. awaiting for ur return back to SG asap..